Every year since the birth of our son on the 26th of March, 2017 we have continued to share our hearts open and raw. Letting you in to what is our world now encompassed equally of joy but weighed heavily by grief gives me the […]
Growing up you always have in mind the names you like and would one day consider for your own children. I think I started my ‘baby name list’ in my iphone notes almost three years before I had our son. I would see a name […]
This is the kind of the story that people don’t ask about. The kind of questions that they may be fearful of asking. They don’t want to upset you or trigger your tears. They want to acknowledge that your child was here but don’t want […]
My life is going to be like a TV show I will never forget. A show that some days I will replay over again and other days it will just be a show I once watched. Neonatal loss also known as newborn infant death will […]
I am overwhelmed. Overwhelmed in this bridge of happiness and despair. Joy and pain. Love and loss. Since Elle came into our world I feel a disconnection to my past. It is like a whole other life and it aches me to say. A part […]
It’s hard, reliving the memories over and over again. Questioning every part of my pregnancy and birth but trying not to blame myself. A year on, I don’t blame myself. I don’t blame anyone. Sadly, Group B Streptococcus is a bacteria that I believe still […]
Life as I know it now, being a parent for the first time earthside. Raising a little being beyond day 3. It is filled with such immense joy. Joy because we finally got here. We got through a year of grief, pain and fear. We […]
The last year. It’s like a blur that I can recall every moment but yet it fades to thin air. Thin air because every moment I recall leads to an outcome I never dreamt of. It led to a life I never thought I would […]
Here I am, raw and exposed. I am not the same woman I was a year ago. I am not the same woman I was six months ago. I am a woman that now falls to my feet more than I stand high. ‘I am […]
Have you ever wished that you could hit a pause & rewind button on your life? Pause on a moment you could spend a little longer enjoying, and rewind to take you back to a moment from your past. I feel like for most people […]